Yesterday evening my mood was extremely uncomfortable and distressing. I worried frantically about what I'd written to my brother. I worried about whether what I'd written would be understood correctly. I worried because of things I'd omitted saying, which I only remembered after the event. I worried about what sort of response I would get.
I got my reply this morning, and am much relieved that it was favourable. I was upset, thought, that my brother had realised from what I'd written, how much he had hurt me over the years. It's not his fault. I'd been so successful at hiding my autism that he'd thought I was merely 'eccentric' (I fucking hate that word).
I've done the reassurance bit, and think that from now on our relationship will be better. My mood is much calmer now.
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