This morning

I'm going to apply for a really inappropriate job in a couple of hours. I'm going to do my best to get it, but I know that it will only be a matter of time before I find it difficult to cope with the people. It has been on my mind all week, and prevented me from sleeping properly last night. I'd been putting off completing the application form, and did so this morning. I really fucked it up, so went and got another one to fill out. I don't really want to talk to the people when I go for the job, and am no good at painted-on smiles. I'm really down about it, and that will probably be evident to the people I have to see. It's crap.