Now

I've just been out for a fag and to have a look at the weather. I was totally engulfed in thought. I was aware of the traffic and of all the people milling around. It's as if I noticed every single car, every single person. I was also very aware of noise; vehicle noise, the sound of talking, of fidgeting, of small children screaming, the rattling noises coming from headphones, the sound of people tapping on their keyboards, and the noise coming from the air conditioning unit in the library. I think it shows how tired I must be, because these are all things that I try to block out. It's really quite overwhelming.