Just now

I treated myself to a fag, outside in the rain. I started thinking about my new cousins. I feel we are starting to become friends, which is what I had hoped for. I thought too, that if it weren't for computers we'd never have met at all. Even if we'd been introduced in person, I could never have struck up any meaningful sort of conversation with them. I fucking hate computers. They are so all-pervasive and intrusive. People become completely hooked on the things, and some people seem completely incapable of surviving without them. But they have given me something wonderfully useful; a means of finally being able to express myself in words that say what I really mean. I just can't do that properly when I'm speaking.