Freefall

I went to the pub yesterday feeling quite edgy. It was quite busy all evening with people I didn't know. I felt panicky with all the conversations going on. All I could hear was a deafening swarm of something, a constant loud buzzing noise. I must try and get better at coping with these situations. Later on a few of the regulars came in. I was still engulfed in a sea of noise, and was suddenly distracted by someone calling my name. "Oy, you ok mate? What's the matter? You were rocking". I hadn't realised that my leg and foot were doing that tapping thing. I was really stressed. I did feel a bit stupid and embarrassed that somebody had noticed.
I woke up this morning with my mind in overdrive. I have the sensation of being in a freefall. I feel that bastard depression lurking ominously close by. Horrible.