Thinking

This, for me, is a time for quiet contemplation. There is a lot going through my mind, but let's face it, there always is. My mood could be better, but it's nothing I can't handle. I've handled these moods many a time before. I'm sitting here sifting and evaluating anything that may be relevant, and weighing up the pros and cons. I keep asking myself over and over again 'What if?', and trying to see the possible outcomes.
In the past I had no social life. The only difficulties I faced were work-related, and were either to do with my colleagues or my job. I used to bring these home with me and mull over them in my free time. Now it is different, in that I do have a social life, and my difficulties are about people intruding upon it and disrupting it. I've never had to think like that before. I've worked very hard at trying to interact socially, and the behaviour that I have been experiencing has prevented me from doing so. I feel as if I've been both marginalised and gagged, and find that very challenging.
I will get through this, but have a lot of thinking to do.