Some musical thoughts

The other day I made a video of myself playing some pieces by Byrd. I don't like seeing myself in pictures or videos. I don't even like seeing myself in the mirror. It gives me the creeps. Whenever I listen to recordings of what I play, all I notice are the mistakes, and some very dull playing. I managed to listen objectively to what I recorded the other day and do you know what? I heard elegant, accomplished and stylish playing. I think that's probably the first time I've ever paid myself a compliment. Self-praise is perhaps no praise, but others also enjoyed what I played, so I'm allowing myself on this occasion only.