Just now

I went outside for a fag in the cool sunshine and started thinking about life. I spend most of my time in silence, as I don't usually need to talk. Sometimes I get a bit bored, but I don't particularly mind that. What I do like is, now I don't have much in the way of a social life, I'm no longer buffeted around by external matters. It's all very uncomplicated, much easier to cope with, and preferable in every way to what I have had. Of an evening I often tell myself that I fancy going out, but the more I think about it, the more I realise that I don't really want to.