Now

I'm trying to pull myself together so I'll be able to play in a very short while. The worst thing about how I am is that thoughts and images tend to stay with you, more or less permanently in my case. I feel exactly the same as I did last night only more tired and angrier. I'm really angry with my upstairs neighbours for being so aggressive and antisocial. I don't like being angry. It's not good for me. It's another case of me doing the psychological self-harm bit. I'm beating myself up because I'm not coping very well with those people. I'll have to do the same as usual and wait for it all to pass eventually.