Why?

I am still trying to find out who I am, but feel that I am getting ever closer. My blog is helping me in this respect, in that I write so many things about how I think and feel, that I could never express verbally. What is different now is that I have started saying more of what I think and feel. Sometimes this is unpleasant for me, for example when I lost it with the cunt in the pub last night. Sometimes it is not unpleasant, for example when I say complimentary but true things to the people who matter most to me. I still express myself with the same bungling ineptitude as I always have done, but at least I'm trying to say it.
My brother asked me yesterday: "Why do you keep saying that?" He was right. I thought about it for a split second and realised that I do say the same things on many occasions. However the things I do repeat are important to me. I want my loved ones to know how much I value them, and how much I appreciate them, and how lucky I am to have such wonderful people. I also repeat myself about the cunts. Until now, I was completely unused to expressing dissent, and would just keep my mouth shut and put up with everything. It is important for my own sanity that if someone regularly grinds me down, even though I have told them properly what it is that I find difficult, then I need to make my displeasure known. As Churchill might have said: 'This is exactly the sort of behaviour up with which I will not put'.
I do believe that the repetition may connected with the Aspergers. I spend my daily life being surrounded by a vortex of thoughts, ideas, people, experiences and conversations. I wonder if, when I repeat something, I've just latched onto something that's flying round in the whirlwind.