Anger

When I was a boy I was not allowed to disagree, let alone express anger or frustration. I have never really learned how to express anger. I simply cannot deal with confrontation and am frightened of it. What I've always done is to either blame myself for a situation and beat myself up, or just bottle it all up and ignore it. My blogs have given me a means of describing anger. On the thermometer, school registers between 5 and 6. Cunt the first registers between 6 and 10. My brother, family and friends register between 1 and 3. The only times in my life that I have ever 'lost it' have been with Cunt the First. It was exhausting and took me days to get over it. I'm learning.