Went to bed at 3.30am. I woke up at 9am with the alarm but fell asleep again until I woke up with a hangover just after 10am.
At 11am I was back at the historic building playing the harpsichord. The playing went well but I had a couple of very difficult moments. One lady stood right next to me while I was playing and was looking at the score I was playing from. How rude and insensitive. It threw me and I had to stop, then she walked away without saying anything.
One or two other people started talking to me. This also made me stop as I can't do anything else when I'm playing. The people were actually saying kind things but I felt very uncomfortable about the intrusion.
I don't want to wear a sign round my neck to warn people I have asd; but I really don't know how to tell people that I find small-talk and close proximity extremely challenging.
The hangover has almost worn off, but my mood is very strange and my thoughts distracting. I feel really miserable with worry, all the usual thoughts are flying round in my mind with unusual speed and ferocity.
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