Today

I feel devastated. I have been accused of attacking someone online, which I haven't. That person hurt me very badly and it has taken me ages to come to terms with it. I have felt all sorts of hurt and anger which I have tried to get out in my blog. I have described the person's behaviour as I have experienced it.
The next part I find hardest of all. I am devastated by the accusations that have been made against me. I did not want to talk about this is public, but feel I have no choice. I told my friend he didn't have to thank me, because it is unnecessary from my point of view to be thanked for doing something that a friend would do. I enjoy cooking for others and hate eating by myself. For that reason I am happy to take food to the pub sometimes and share it with friends. I have been doing so this week while my friend from Germany is here.
The last part is cruellest of all. I honestly believed I understood what was said to me and how I was behaved towards. I don't want to say anything further except that I am completely lacking in imagination. I too have Aspergers and this has all been a learning curve for me too. I was completely unused to living in public until last June. To read that someone has been subjected to things against their wishes in making me feel sick. That was not what I understood. I thought the behaviour was reciprocal.
I admit I am obsessive. I know that. Most people with Aspergers are obsessive. I don't accept that I am controlling. My comments about the other person were not unprovoked. The hurt from the latest couple of incidents has not yet gone away. I had every right to describe how I felt.
What a horrible mess.