Loose connections

These two words sum up my life as it is now. Medically I've two unresolved issues, namely autism and neurology. Musically I'm in between one place and another, or rather in neither one place not t'other. At home there is a Christmas card on the table that I received on the second of December but still haven't opened. I'm very apprehensive about it. It's from someone I used to consider a good friend. The last time we spoke was by phone on  Christmas Day 2013. He asked me how I was, and when I told him he didn't seem very pleased, and the conversation ground to a halt. If you don't want to know how someone is, then why put yourself to the trouble of asking? I think these issues are contributing to my general feeling of unsettledness (or whatever the right word for that is).