At the chemists

The pharmacist spoke to me when I collected my tablets. He told me I should take them after breakfast. I explained that I don't have breakfast and never have done. He also warned me about painkillers. I explained that I don't take them. Even after my operation, I only took about a quarter of the dose I should have been taking. I have a very high pain threshold. I just get on with it. The chemist looked at me like I'd sprouted four heads.

At the moment

I am spending the day being bombarded with thoughts etc, just as I do every day and night. Naturally I have been dwelling on my experiences of the last week, and am trying to make sense of now.
My feelings haven't changed one bit, and I daresay they won't. I suppose one's feelings don't change, unless something happens to force them to change. Well it hasn't, and they haven't. The new and odd thing is that I am able to rise above all this when I'm in public, instead of being reduced to a gibbering mess. I am obviously going through a period of adjustment and think I'm managing quite well.
I am realistic. I know how things are and accept that. I don't want things any other way than how they should be.

Now

I'm feeling very quiet today. I think I will want to be near people, but probably won't want to talk to them. When I go out this evening I'll wear my thick coat, so that I can sit outside without freezing.

Die Nachsicht

Ich bin kein Spinner. Ich hatte es ganz richtig. In den letzten Paar Tagen habe Ich die Gelegenheit gehabt, mit Freunde meinen Umstand zu diskutieren. Meine Analyse war zutreffend. Das ist alles.

More about Aspergers

I've been wondering why my fits seem to be occurring more frequently. I've noticed that they always come a day or two after a meltdown, although they don't always follow one. I'm learning to live socially, so of course the challenges will be new and unexpected. That is why I experience both more often.
It is a wonderful thing for me that more people are beginning to understand what it is that I find difficult.

This morning

I've done the boring things to get them out of the way. I started off by going to the supermarket to get some fag papers and filters, before going to the doctors to collect my prescription. Then I went to the chemists to collect my tablets, and went straight on to the German supermarket. The coffee, milk and eggs which would have cost me about £5.00 in my normal supermarket cost me less than £3.00. I think I'm going to use the German place in future.

Yesterday

I was in a very quiet mood yesterday. It was lovely to see friends at the pub, but as I couldn't be chatty I was up and down to the keyboard. There was one horrible moment later on, to which I did not react. Afterwards I went and sat outside quietly and had a few smokes. My friends who understand Aspergers noticed what had happened and were very good. When I went back inside, I sat in the corner and played French harpsichord music so that it was barely audible. Despite the laughter and conversation of the other people, I was surprised that they both heard and enjoyed it.